I'm NOT Behind!

I do realize that I have been a little relaxed when it comes to posting regularly on my Blog. I'm 2 weeks in now and find that I am already behind! But then I thought to myself, "Can you really be behind on something for which there are no deadlines?" To which the answer is no. I get to make my own rules here! And, as I so quickly promised at the end of my very first blog post, this is exactly how my journal writing goes. I do really well, feel totally inspired, and write everyday for 3 whole days! And then it happens, my mind starts thinking without my permission and it convinces myself that all my writing is in vain! "You're the only one who will ever see it. Nobody cares if you lifted a car by yourself. You would be doing something more useful if you were sleeping right now instead of journaling." I didn't actually ever lift a car by myself, but you can bet if I did, I would be holding it up long enough for my mom to try and figure out how to take a picture with my iPod and then I would post that picture on this blog for the world to see!

My  real journal is one that my parents gave me when I turned 8. They even gave me a pencil to write in it with! The reason I remember that is because I wrote about it during my very second journal entry (It was a real cliffhanger). And since I am so committed to writing, there are over half of the pages still waiting to be filled with my snippets of wisdom. The journal doesn't close all the way because it is so crammed full of "artifacts" that will someday, after I lose my mind, spark a memory!

My first journal entry. I was 8 and the spelling

and penmanship were both marvelous!

I love to write poetry, and so my other journal, or what I consider to be a journal, is an old beat up notebook that the pages are falling out of. Each paper is filled with words, scribbles, corrections and random thoughts waiting to be put together. Looking at those pages is probably a lot like what it would look like if you could see my mind... Scribbles, doodles, thoughts...

So, don't give up on me! I'm trying to be more committed, I'm just waiting for something to happen that will be worth your time to stop by and read!

-Mandie